Mr Potter and the Deathly Hallows

Started reading the book at 3 yesterday. Slept at 5 .30. Woke up at 10 this morning and yes, I just finished the book at 1300.

So how was it?

Well, I expected the ending. I guessed who was the plotter, who was the spy. Whom died? Also guessed correctly.

But yeah, its a nice book. Though the ending was really sudden. As if the writer wanted the book to be done and over with. Not really the ending that I liked.

Some people never learnt.

This post is dedicated to the one who posted the funny message to me.

For once, comment if you like, but do not comment on my choice of content for my blog. Post on your own if you like, but please kindly leave your childish personality on your own blog.

I'm not here to entertain you, neither to rebuke you on your childishness. I just wanted you to know that there are invisible eyes out there on the Internet that can observe what you do, write, etc and record it down.

I don't really care who are you. But if you are who I think you are, think about it. FRIEND.


Someone is watching...

Fate is like hanging on a thin thread.

I feel so disappointed with myself.

When I don't understand the subject, i got 25%. When I understand I got 30%. What bugs me is what have I done wrongly..failure for me when I know its a failure is understandable...but failure is not an option when I know my mistakes.

SO, WTF happened? Guess I'll only know tomorrow.

I called my dad just now, even more disappointed with myself when my dad showed concern. I expected that he would grumble and scold me, I tried hard, studied and this is the result. Is it true if you aren't set for the subject, no matter how you try, nothing nice is going to come out of it? Why can't I get this?


Life feels so dull suddenly,
At the click of a mailbox,
My world grows dark and cold.

Lost is my golden key,
Gone is my hope for honours,
Demise of my masters' Dream.

Burden by disappointment,
Heavy my shoulders feel,
Weakening of my legs.

Can I still stand?
I need some time off.

I need some encouragement.
Dennis better dun piss me off on the trip.

Scanario?

It's not a spelling mistake. I'm just following what the tutor pronounced the scenario as. Week 1 of school is ending soon.

And what have I gotten? Projects....projects..gotta start doing them in order to be in schedule for the programming assignment for Programming 3.

Professional Computing Practice seems really boring. Basically, its just self-learning. Accounting systems too...just that I gotta do a refresher for the debit and credits.

What I'm feeling now...properly described in this MTV by Linkin Park: Somewhere I Belong.



(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
and I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

(chorus)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

And I’ve got nothing to say
I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face
(I was confused)
Looking everywhere only to find
That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind
(So what am I)
What do I have but negativity
’Cause I can’t justify the way everyone is looking at me
(Nothing to lose)
Nothing to gain, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

(Repeat chorus)

I will never know
Myself until I do this on my own
And I will never feel
Anything else until my wounds are healed
I will never be
Anything till I break away from me
I will break away
I'll find myself today

(Repeat chorus)

I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I am somewhere I belong
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I am somewhere I belong
Somewhere I belong

So lost.

School starts..today

Went down to the DFO at Essendon yesterday with the 3Ds, Danielle's friend and roommate and Jason, can't spell their name.

Bought a single T-shirt from Esprit at 15 dollars.

After that Possum hunting marked the end of a remarkably long but seemingly short holiday.
(For those who don't know what the hell is a possum, don't worry, I managed to take pictures of it. Something like a giant squirrel, I would say.)

Oh well, school starts today. Will be going down to help man the RMIT aikido booth today. Wonder who will be there to do the setting up. I heard Lock will be going down. I wonder will that be an attraction too?

Anyway, I might be going down early, just to take a look around and recce a bit here and there for awhile. I'll help Lock for the moment, probably until around 2pm I guess. I'm thinking of meeting up with Kirby since he's here with his girlfriend. He seems to have mellowed down a bit. Haha. Took a look at my course guide this morning, seems I'm gonna have a headache this sem for Programming 3. One look and I think,"OMG. I don't even remember anything of this shit."

But then, must keep a positive thinking, and slog on. Now I'm thinking, should I go purchase the lecture notes today?

Thinking about the SSA job starts to give me a headache. Feel so lost.

Close your eyes and open your mind..

Went down to Hoyts to watch Bridge to Terrabitha this afternooon with Kai, Kevin and Eric. Rahul shouldn't have missed out on this nice show.

This show was really interesting, though the starting parts were damn boring.

As the show was playing, it asked me. What is real? Can fantasy be made-believe or part of our lives...? It makes me wonder which part of my life is reality, which part of it is what I wished it would be.

Lets' say in the context of an imaginary friend. I feel lonely in life. No one to love me, pamper me at all. What do I do? I create an imaginary friend whom I know will give me all that I want without any conditions. Friends nowadays, they wanna know you for various reasons other than friendship. The true meaning of friendship is long forgotten.

Imagination is the key. Life doesn't have to be boring, and waiting for others to move. Move on your own and others will follow. Never wish for a miracle, it will never happen. Work towards the miracle, make it happen.. Life doesn't have to be dull. If you are dull, your life will be colorless. If you are all-jumpy, well, we see some colors, don't we?

Results are out?

Results are out!!!

Apart from one shot down...but nevertheless to be revived.

Professional Practice for Information Systems - Credit.
Computer Security and Control - Distinction.
Web3D Technologies - Distinction.

A sigh of relieve for the Computer Security, actually expected a credit due to some nutty cork up. Professional Practice for Information Systems, expected a pass - credit, due to the tutor teaching and highlighting utterly irrelevant shit. Luckily, the lecturer was downright boring but actually a very great help, and 2nd point was that I done this subject in poly. :P. As for web3d, Trevor actually hinted that I got close to a High Distinction during a meeting. :)

Haha...actually i wrote some much so that my post won't look so short.

Updates!

As above....photos taken thru the weeks have been updated.

Few more Days to my re-test. Hope I pass, then can continue my 2nd semester in peace. Must write faster, draw correct diagrams...bring ear muffs, don't dress too much. Tired shoulders.

Just to note: @ my Picturesteal page.

1. Clubbing and Hot Pot pics are in "Daily Melbourne"
2. New "Melbourne Zoo" photo album.
3. New "RMIT Aikido" photo album.

Happy Viewing..!

Welcome to Melbourne Gaol.

Went to visit the Melbourne Gaol while waiting for my laundry to dry. Went there with Eric, Kevin and Shah. A rather ghostly atmosphere, took a few pictures to show my point, but I can't upload it currently, due to the problem of over downloading. I will have to wait till Monday before I can upload any new event pictures.

Another way is to hop on to RMIT, and upload from there, should be much faster, but nt sure whether the place got open or not during the holidays.

6 months have passed so fast. Worrying woes are beginning to set in. For sure Adelin is going to buai me for this post. I'm STILL worrying about getting a job back home...aaah.

Welcome to the zoo..zoo.zoo... + Autobots Roll out!!!

Juz came back from watching the Transformer movie. Remembered it was so popular back then..really missed those times.

I loved the part where the female lead mentioned that the car was crap, and Bumblebee morphed to a newer version of the car.

Wonder whether is there going to be a sequel? Starscream is still around there somewhere...the scorpion-like robot is still somewhere in the desert...

Went down to the Melbourne Zoo with Kevin and Muey Lip and Lee Ting. Relived times where I got to the zoo in Singapore to take pictures, with my dad always nagging me to remember to include myself in the picture. Just to note, I myself am not camera-shy, but I would rather take pictures of the scenery or animals rather than myself. I would prefer to take pictures with good friend or someone that I liked, thats all. Really enjoyed myself seeing the animals living so carefree. But true, they gain security and lose freedom. Is that a good sacrifice?

This point was also highlighted in the Transformer movie too. Are we living in a free country? Where we can speak our minds? Most of the time, others care not on what we say, but more to what they can gain from what we say. Someone has to stand up for others to take part.

The pictures taken today will be up soon.

Pictures Due:
1. Aikido Demos.
2. Clubbing @ Velour.
3. Visit to the Melbourne Zoo.
4. SSA Sponsorship Pictures.

Work Due:
5. Studying for my sub paper.
6. Re-doing my resume.
7. Back to job search in Singapore?

1 word. Ahhhhh!

The weight is on me....urgh.

School's starting soon.

Seeing one of my results where I have to take the sub paper makes me so pei chek. Though I expected it since I sucked at that module, still I got the same feeling. The moment I got this information, I rushed down to school to look for Dale and asked to see my paper.

Got blacked out that damn day. And you know what, I probably would have passed by the skin of my teeth...if I had more time to finish certain parts of the paper. Sobz.

Got great for my assignments. But then crashed due to my final paper. Aaah wasted. Think next time I have to print out my assignment grades to convince my future employees.

Software Engineering Fundamentals : Dead - Hope for Resurrection.
Web3D Technologies: Live - Hope for Distinction, best become High Distinction.
Professional Practice for Information Systems: Hope Live - Happy for Credit.
Computer Security Controls: Hope Live - Happy for Credit, best become Distinction.

Terence called me to go clubbing at Velour. It's a new Terence, not the Idiot upstairs. Anyway the clubbing was cool. Kevin got hooked up by some some random missus. Heng not me, disgusted. The music was okay, a lot of Chinese there as to what Kevin said. Some cute girls, but no idea why, I don't feel a sense of attraction so far for babes I meet in clubs..?

Going to Melbourne Zoo tomorrow morning with Muey Lip and Lee Ting, plus Kevin. Wonder got what animal there. Hehz. I should remember the route to go there, can provide information in the SSA forum.

Thinking about graduation again. What to do? Confirm will be going back to Singapore to work, since I don't think I taking honors liao. Probably, will take Masters in SIM, part-time probably. Either that, get a specialist certificate in security. Looking out for jobs that might interest me. Help help.

Studies liao. Do what in life?

Another 6-10 months more of studying life, and I'll probably be on the path of working already.

Then, the major questions will be, what will be my job? Will it be interest-related? Will it be IT-related? Will I even get a job? Everyone wants a meaningful job that will interest them and give a meaning to life's journey. Gives memories back to primary school where we had to write an essay with regards to what we wanna be when we grow up. Can't remember what I had wrote, if I did write something, it should be to be a police officer I guess.

Was browsing thru alot of jobs a few days ago.
Just to name a few:

1. Working as a Customer relations officer.
2. Becoming a Teacher.
3. Becoming a financial adviser...
4. Working in the Civil Service..
5. Had the dream of signing on, but alas..
6. Becoming a security auditor.
7. Being involved in IT..marketing.
8. Teach martial arts? lol.
9. Join the workforce as a IT staff.

Thing is, what am I looking for in a job? Self-satisfaction? Interests? Even I can't think of what I wanna be when I graduate.

Blog Patrol rocks...!

I just installed a blog counter on my blog....I got it from kevin's website. Thanks to him for that man. :P

Due to this, I got to know information on whom is visiting my blog and where are they from...feeling curious, since I got some hits from Google.com, I decided to go to Google and type my blog name in....

Guess what? I got 6 hits.

By the way, I'm helping my friend to promote his photo storage creation...it can be accessed from here.

So guys, please give my friend your support...!

Trevor, my Web3D lecturer sent an email to my account to say that the examination results the subject is out. Just hearing this makes me feel so sian...I hope I passed that man...what worries me more is my software fundamentals...its easy, just taxing to finish in one shot...as for my professional practice in information systems, its assured. Phew..now to go zzz and read books.

Night everyone...

And thanks for visiting my blog, Xunru, Alvin and Cindee...

New Picture Site.

Hi my friends who visit my site often...

I've placed a new link to another photo album since the rest are all choked up. Hope you guys love them.


Argh...thinking about my results now....I hope I passed man....

Holidays are boring..

Just started my semester break not too long ago. Thanks to peishi, I'm now watching the dramas she has passed to me.

Previously I was watching this touching Japanese drama called Gokusen, at first I thought it had something to do with monkey god, but then well, I realized that it was actually something like GTO. I was rather pei chek that it finished after 10 episodes, but was happy to find another 10 in another disc.

But too bad, the first is always the best. As always, the weather is getting really cold, sometimes hitting 6 even. Claus has advised me to wear warm clothing, thanks alot!

Went down to smith street yesterday with pei shi, bought a suit and a hooded jacket, but I still can't find that smart casual jacket that I wanted. I used to wear jackets back in Singapore too, but somehow I found that the matching looked rather bad, so I stopped wearing them, anyway, it turns out that jackets are quite suitable here. So most of the clothes that I'm purchasing here are actually less thicker than they are suppose to be, so that when I go back to Singapore, I can wear them.

Dad told me to call my older follks here and there as they will really appreciate it. Think I should give my grandmas a call tomorrow morning, and also to start getting on with doing my work for the winter.

Things I hope to do:
1. Prep up for subjects next semester.
2. Get started on the recruitment plan.
3. Get started on the website.
4. Start reading the books I have bought so far.
5. Start trying the pasta recipe book that I bought, can cook for my parents when I get back.

I used to think that doing IT would be my preferred field of work. True, it is interesting, but it interests me more during the research factor, but not really in the practical aspect. As for photography, it is my dream to capture memorable images. Cooking? well, I hope to be able to whip up great dishes for the people I love, thats all. I think those who influenced me on these stuff would be:

IT- It should be both Jason and Yi fu.
Photography - It should be my dad and charlie.
Cooking - It should be my aunt's and uncle's food business, and Claus.

Was at a gathering chatting with Irene yesterday. She expressed interested in getting a black belt in aikido. This got me thinking, what does the black belt represent?

To some:
1. It equals to status.
2. It equals to a sense of achievement.
3. It comes about as a sense of higher learning.
4. Time to slack.

I admit that I'm not a top quality aikidoist, therefore I have no right to criticize others. But there are some who are willingly taking up an offer to lend a helping hand without knowing what he or she is getting himself into.

Things to be prepared are:
1. Students who are overzealous.
2. Complain King students.
3. Racist students.
4. Sexist students.
5. Horny students, very rare, but slim chance.

Some trainees might agree that becoming a black belt sacrifices a lot of personal time. Dedication is one thing, personal life is another. Your boyfriend or girlfriend might not understand why are you spending so much time there. You might be swamped by overwhelming demands from students and parents alike.

Well. Thats all for today. :P

Here...fishies...fishies.

Just had a quick dinner with pei shi over at my place today. Cooked some beef and salmon. Hope that she liked what she ate.

I'm out on a fishes craze recently, think due to the exam mood, I literally killed most of my brain cells. She passed me alot of korean dramas to watch...hope they will be interesting. :)

Sleepy...zz

A cold blurry night.

Melbourne's weather is getting from bad to worse.


The sky was so foggy at 5pm, and by just talking you would be able to see mist coming out of your mouth. Went for aikido after so long finally at Melbourne University. Seems rather funny that I'm going to another school's aikido class instead of my own. Well, I had exams that period of time, what to do?

I saw a set of Melbourne university's polar fleece jacket. Wow it was really nice, not to say that the one made by RMIT University sucks, but the former was definitely the type of jacket that I preferred. I really liked the beanie sold by RMIT though.

Went dinner with peishi at Nandos. One thing about this restaurant is that I'm only attracts to the chilli sauce. Brr...Cold weather.
Too bad I can't post pics here, will update it in when able to.

Finally over.

Yippee.

My exams are finally over. But I still do not know what I wanna do for the holidays. Feel so tired after the exams.

Time for a long rest. Haiz.

Alternate World.

Was planning to write this in the morning, but somehow got overtaken by the other's thoughts.

Ever get the feeling that when you are sleeping, you have a dream that makes you smile, and just when you get to the good part, you wake up. An absolute letdown. You start to grumble about not finishing the dream. I had this idea when I was a kid. If you wanna continue your dream, just go back to sleep and you know what? It works.

How? You might ask. Well, There's different levels of sleep. When dreams start occurring, you are at the level where you are physically asleep, but you are still mentally conscious. Make yourself go back to that level. I have been doing this since I was a kid.

Some people may ask, what the point of this? Simple, in a dream, you came from:

Asleep --> Unconscious --> Conscious mode --> Awake.
(You have no or little control of what you are dreaming.)

I tried this method.
Awake-->Asleep-->Conscious.
(You have complete control over your dreams, and you can wake up anytime you want.)

Simply saying, I love this world. I allows me to live in this false reality where I can achieve my impossible dreams just for a temporary period of time. I get to relive my memories again, inputing parts that were missing in real life, thus turning it into reel life. Sometimes I do wish I could just sleep on and continue living in this alternate reality. But yet the reality beckons.

At the start, there were some miscalculations on my side. There was once, I woke up, went back to dreamland, but only woke up at the end of 4 days. The other times were that I went into conscious mode without physically sleeping, therefore seeing some stuff that one would normally describe as a nightmare, but the problem was that I was experiencing the nightmare while awake!

The mind is such a fun place.

Just Desserts.

Just wanna write something about myself. Something that a lot of people don't know about mi.

I find it very interesting to see if a friend has been cause the of problems for me. Especially if its a long term problem. Its rather an interest booster to the person's character, I must comment.

Childishness?

Most of the time, even if I know that you are the troublemaker behind my problem, Nah, I still won't bother, unless you start to make the first move to bomb me. But then I'll still be a friend and visit you occasionally, even if you don't want to open the door. Well, I believe in a lasting friendship.

But I also believe what goes around, comes around.
Sins were much discussed about in my religion. Really paid a lot of attention on this. Friend should be friends, true. I'll still be friendly to you even if you were stabbing my back. I believe in basic conscience. If the friend in question doesn't have it, thats ' even better, coz this makes life's journey much more interesting in the number of surprises that you will get from this guy. Life is pretty much more interesting with the bad guys around, don't you think?

Anyway, the point is, I believe, when you grow old and die, we will either go to Purgatory, Heaven or Hell. I think most of the people that die are still somewhere in purgatory, waiting for their sins to be forgiven. I wouldn't want my friend to go to hell or purgatory you know.

The best result: I'll see you guys in heaven. We will talk about the good, funny times, we enjoy the company of the creator.
The worst result : I'll see you guys in hell. I will just ask you, "Mate, how's the heat? It's hot in here, I know I deserved this, but what are you doing here with me? my good friend?"

The 'okay' result: We see each other in purgatory. One of us will take a longer time to be condemned, or be enlightened.

Anyway. Enuff of this. The main point is: I love you my friend. To me, giving is like a double-edged sword. I'll give you what I have, you deserved it. I want you to turn back and stop stabbing me, simply cuz it hurts. But if you still decide to stab on, so be it. But the thing is, up till here, anything else that I give you will accumulate your sins, cause you are repaying evil for friendship. In a way, I'm giving you an extra serving of sins. The idea is, if you are still stabbing me, you better stop accepting stuff from me. :P

I am the type who's going to absolutely anything to repay the deeds done to me.