Crap. There's a glitch in my life.

Glitches. A major issue in life. Everyone just isn't satisfied. Get a soulmate, must have standard criteria. The package that comes with it must be well-endowed, whether physically or financially. Since when have feelings evolved to come with a price?

Are we suppose to love someone more because he/she is rich or owns something we can only dream of having? So what's my worth?

I don't have the 5Cs.
I can't guarantee that you will live life comfortably with me.
I can't ensure that you will be happy with me.

But the warranty that comes with my package:
The condition to love unconditionally and wholeheartedly.

But well, what good does this package do? No material needs and wants fulfilled. No personal gains. It's just a feeling. Nothing special.

My friends used to discuss about getting a rich gf, then there would be no need for work. Bull man, life doesn't work this way, unless in any sense, you are a wuss and prefer not to have any control of your life. Who doesn't want to see your other half happy? But you can't always hold on tightly to the rope and wish that it won't break. Give us some freedom. True, there are those who stray, but not everyone walks the same path, you can't just judge from a past experience.

If that is so, shouldn't I be really disappointed in women? In my path, all I have seen are the ones that will cast you aside when someone attractive comes in their midst, and when their heart has been broken, they come back to you, expecting something, or those that listen to every whim of their friends, and put their boyfriends to all kinds of funny tests. I understand that if I passed the test of yours, you will feel happy and smile, telling your friends that they were wrong, but have you ever thought of my feelings. I guess not. Sometimes they do have the cheek to ask you whether did you 'conduct' any test on them, but well..you know how much I loved you, thats why I can't bear to tell you that you failed every single one of them. Thats my promise.

You can hear it when others break your heart, but can you hear the silent cracking in my broken heart. I guess not. Since we are assumed to be great players, naturally you would think that it was just sound effects, not real one.

I thought that after the last one, I would just step out of the box, and help out here and there, be the angel that consoles you when u r down, but be gone when you look that kind of...

Life changes.

Taking a new step forward.

Humans once affected by something disastrously similar to what happened in the past are prone to rejecting it if it happens again.

In studies:
I sucked in Programming in my polytechnic, I just couldn't get the logic. Though I might know and understand the uses for each different coding, I can't manage to write it out. Now I got the same programming issues, and I'm starting to feel caged to the past. I'm really afraid to take the step out, I tried last time and got backstabbed by a Scorpio guy. Now my really great friend is helping me out alot, but yet I can't understand why can people be so helpful? Even my parents would drop me in the pool to paddle on my own.

In relationships
My last 2 relationships had it ups and down, treasured some memories, tore some to shreds. But what was the conclusion. I often hear girls complain about unfaithful or untrustworthy guys, but I do have my side of the story. Some girls are like that too. I can't drop how I felt, neither can I deny how I feel. Good guys don't get to meet good girls, and vice-versa. There's always a glitch up there somewhere.

Splat...Ba..dum...Cool..Urgh.

Paintball

Went for a game of paintball with around 23 other RMIT SSA members, all the way to NSW. I really enjoyed my first time of this game, but due to the lenses and my own glasses, couldn't really see properly during the game, ended up being the casualty of the day, with the most number of shots on me.

I did meet someone really nice on the trip..she seemed shy at first, I thought she would be a bit lian in the first place, since she was a friend of Wilson, but well things aren't what they seemed. She's a really nice girl...she even gave ammo to the opposition. Haha...

I hope I can get the rest of the pics from Desmond as well..since his cam has the ones that we were posing with the masks and the paintgun. Got to know the girl better after the paintball session, went for dinner with the group,

I realized this is the 3rd time I found someone I can really click well with so far..haven't found any negative points of her yet...heh, except she cannot tahan tickles...Hahaha..a lot in common. Rare. She likes mushrooms too, does that mean I now have a mushroom contender?

Really disliked the pics santoso took. Not nice one.

Operation Sebastian @ DFO

Went down to DFO Spencer Street with Sebastian. I only got a belt for myself, while he went on a semi shopping spree. He really got lotsa new clothes...haha, posting it up here.


The Before Pic


The After Pic


I really love this sundown.

Finally, I've gotten some pictures of the people I train in Aikido with in Melbourne.


Martin and Me


Yle (Cute ar. . .)

I'm feeling abit tired and demoralized now. Can I pass my degree successfully and get on with life? I feel so unstable now. I thank Kevin for helping me with my work, but yet I feel so uneasy about it. I wanna do something myself, but I'm afraid to take the next step, whether is it in relationships or studies.

I think...are some people really there for me? Kevin states that no one needs people to be there for them, just believe in themselves can already. I beg to differ. I really find that I need some support right now, but when I look around, everyone just seems so transparent. Could I make it in time for the graduation?

No one will be there at my graduation. Help guys......

New T-shirts!!!

So happy!!! I just exchanged 3 new T-shirts for 3 old T-shirts that I couldn't wear anymore!! =P

I'm going to take a few pictures of it and put them on the blog. Heh..



Back View of AFC



Front View of AFC



The BIG ISSUE



RED CROSS(back)



RED CROSS(front)

By the way, Cindy....HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

I realized I haven't been blogging much, but I'm just so tired...

Today, I got to know this aussie dude, and wow, he isn't as stuck up as most of the blokes I have met so far...should start posting up more pics..

I read up some books during the long absence:

So here, I've this books to recommend.
1. Sun Tzu Art of War
The book is really interesting, especially for people have a lot of interest in philosophy. Whats more, the book is design in a way that looks like a cross between a modern day book and a old Chinese manuscript format.

2. Making Friends by Andrew Matthews
Really easy to read, will recommend it for blokes who are having problems mixing around the common bunch, whats more, even if you aren't a reader, you will still look at this book, since most of the meanings are drawn out in the form of cartoons!!

Just some links worth checking out:
www.afconline.org.au
www.redcross.org.au

Nice Music on da nice Aussie morning

Switched on the TV after so long...and I got this really nice song....

By Grinspoon - What you got? Nice vid too


Another nice song that I wanna recommend..
花儿乐队- 穷开心

Excerpts from the week!

Now what has passed in this week:

The Story of a Banana in my House.
Went for the Aikido weapon class on Wednesday. I don't really remember doing the techniques anymore, feel so tired, yet I really wanna go for lessons training. I can't hear what Anthony is saying, as always. Think Irene quit because of this. I miss Bernie's class in kembagan. I finished the class, and was heading back home. Met these two old folks who were looking for 'Melba Hall', and they were in a hurry to reach there. Helped them to find the place as they didn't really knew how to speak much English. They gave me a banana in return for the trouble and that's the reason why there is a banana in my house.

The Bag of Unsold Garage Sale Stuff
Simple. I was supposed to sell them at the World Week yesterday, but it turned out to be a planning disaster. No stores were there, just a few people, quiet environment. Looks more like a walk down Bowen St on an ordinary day.

Time passes by...

Time passes by really fast, now its already mid-sem. It feels something like ORD. When there is a deadline to a certain date.

Also, my assignments ' deadline are coming as well, Stress. I hope I make the grade man, especially the Computerized Accounting System..."shivers"

Then what else is due?
Professional Computing Practice Ass 1 Part 2
(Headache for this lor...)