Monday, January 28, 2008

Gazing into the Melbournian night skies. : Changes.

Somewhat of a lonely moment right now.

Kai and Amy just arrived yesterday. For those who do not know. Kai is my neighbor, and Amy is his girlfriend and also my secondary school classmate.

I realized that I have changed since I came to Melbourne. Things that I like has begone and changed. My habits have changed, my view of life and the other half has been modified. My life goals have also took to a twisting road. My tastes in fashion and style have changed and my tone and reasons for conversations have been updated.

I no longer bear a liking for cute, round eyed, and sweet-sounding women. After some reflection, I thought I should look around and take a single walk down the boulevard, since there's other things to look around at. So what kind of women do I prefer now?

1. She doesn't necessary have to be Singaporean. Just no Indians or Malays.
2. She has to be matured and know how to think long term, instead of making decisions based on short term benefits.
3. Think of others first, but spare a thought for herself on sensible matters.
4. Suited to my whines. Heh.
5. Satisfy me? Not physically, just be that girl that I'm looking for.
6. Looks? well, it matters. Still an option up to me. And of course, based on that, she's free to judge me.

I used to love taking in the sights, but was too financially unsound to own something on my own. In the end, I got a idiot-proof camera after saving a long time for it, and decided that the human brain doesn't have enough space to store the lovely sights of the world. Just taking into mind the glancing of a beautiful women is enough to make the male system hang. Used to love taking people in pictures.
But now:
1. People just outta stay out of pictures. The world looks fine without humans.
2. I'm in love with cute animals and pretty flowers!
3. I just adore the sunset and open skies shots!
4. If people want to stay in my shots, don't pose for me k?
5. Something that hasn't changed, I still hate being in the picture of my own camera. =P

Fashion sense? I used to love clothes with black, white or gray. I didn't like bright colors, thought that they had no place in my life to begin with. Now, the colors in my life are brighter, and coupled with the fashion display in Melbourne, I've reached another level. ;P
1. Noir clothes for me please.
2. I love flowery and tribal designs!
3. Something about 'opposites' suits me fine and nice.
4. Heh. a certain style suits me now. Experiment experiments.
;)

Friday, January 18, 2008

Found it!

The exam schedule is out. So that means no more running around the place having fun being the priority. Time to study harder and go home in peace.

Programming 3
18 Feb 08
5.45pm- 9.00pm

I saw the pre-designs of my room and really liked it. Cindy said that it was really nice....


First Look.


Second Look.

I'm thinking of adding a fridge inside. Wonder what will my parents say? Haha. And a bean bag. I've always wanted to have a bean bag in my room. A tv inside would be rare. Considering that I can't find any place for a tv to exist inside the room. I thought of the wall furnishing that I'm going to get. Hehe.

I got this korean music video: Kiss- Because I'm a Girl. Really touching.


I personally don't like Paris Hilton much, but I must admit, this song is really catchy. =P

Sunday, January 13, 2008

Chomp...Chomp. Singapura?!

Just started my first day of work @ the Singapore Chom Chom at Bourke Street.

Kinda like the game Diner Dash.

Friends familiar with the game will understand what I mean. =P

Now its Terence turn to start leaving for Singapore. Hope I can see them when I get back home. I should revise my Java on a daily basis, and hopefully finish at least half of it before the examination date is out on the 18th. Then I'll start revising for the practical parts after I know the codes. If it can be done, I shall go look for Charles to discuss with him, since I find that he's a really helpful lecturer compared to Dale.

Also, my OUA issue is in the midst of getting settled. Waiting for their staff to get back to me on the issue. Then I'll be able to transfer my credit over to my degree and presto! additional 12 points and another 12 points more to graduation. It seems that the next graduation will either be onshore in December 2008, or September 2008 in Singapore for the offshore graduation. Think I should opt for the offshore one, at least my friends and parents would be able to make it for me.

Then, on with life. I've learnt that just depending on your education to bring u riches is just plain bullshit and its a no no for the average joe.

Thursday, January 10, 2008

A searing hit of 41.

Melbourne's temperature's hit 41 today, and now in the night its 27. Guess my body couldn't adapt to the sudden change and fell sick.

Coughed out some blood, and ate some antibodies. The sick me. I used to be really frail as a kid, needing the use of various medicines to keep myself alive. Ginseng, steroids, you name it, should be there.

Its so difficult to find a job in Melbourne. Nor to mention if it is a high-paying or moderate one in all. And Dale has yet to reply. The Ultimate in RMIT inefficiency. Well, Actually, it does not go to him. Ron should be the one to receive the award.


Pictures taken in Mt Dandedong.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Tears in my Eyes?

Went to see Yu Zhen off at the airport, she should have arrived in Singapore by now, I guess. Another one of the list, before the countdown hits me as the last to go back.

When was the last time I really cried for someone honestly...? I guess I can't remember anymore, the last time should be somewhere in secondary school, and a bit of feelings when my grandfather passed away.

But what can I say? most of the time I feel I'm more suited to doing things devoid of feelings. Its not that I'm a cold-hearted inhuman creature, but just that the in the place where the feeling is supposed to be, its just emptiness. Whatever happened to me in my childhood? Well, I don't wish to talk about it.

But the impact it brought on me, rather bad, I began to see people as empty husks of flesh containing souls. I never really spared a second thought of playing with their emotions if I got the chance, and seriously, everyday was just a new experiment to me and the people around were just like lab rats for me to do research on and see their reactions. Slowly, I started to realized that this wasn't the method for making friends, but sometimes, reverting back to the old me does indeed make me happier, even for a while.

I admit being in the center of the thin black line is really lonely. But it does have its pros. I used to often think why some people talk to their stuffed toys. But I realize my folly, since I'm no better by imagining my own world everyday. However, yeah, this imagination does help me to sleep, help me to stay happy and feeling contented with life. It did have its cons as well, I thought of things too much. Up to the point, whenever I closed my eyes, horribly mangled images and carnage that were so bizarre that I couldn't understand how it would happened in front of my closed eyes. And that is where I found my true fear. I got to the point that I saw the images whenever I closed my eyes. I saw faces of agony on the walls and the movement of the ground in a strange fashion. Then I found out how I could remove them by listening to music. Not just any, but music where I could get the beat into my mind, and focus on it.

Then along came aikido and photography. My two current loves. Two precious things in my life to put my heart and soul into. Contrary to what some others think, currently, looking for a girlfriend or someone to go out with me isn't exactly the top priority in my life, since kinda after the last relationship, I'm still cold and choked after it.

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Going back

Everyone is going back to their respective countries in a few days time. Jerome is going back on Monday, Ms. Neo is going back on Wednesday...

Why? I should stop feeling dejected on these issues.

I went to Dandedong with Yu Zhen, Cher, Xinyi and Fong Fei. Had a really nice time taking pictures there. Went on the Olinda Falls trail and brought them to try out the various standards of scones that are around the mountain. Brought them to the observatory on the top of the mountain and yeah, I finally managed to see Melbourne City from there. Birds were one of the highlights too, except that Cher was fearful of moving creatures and Yu Zhen too.


Getting sick again from all the worrying once again. Java has always been my weak point. I really hope that i can get 50 pts to just grad off. Really really wish that this will happen. Depression has set in and I'm trying to get my moods up. What can I do? Praying again should help. My mind is in a turmoil now.

Books to finish reading?
Yeah quite alot. I'm trying to finish "Rich Dad, Poor Dad" as I write. Then to read the body language book again to freshen up. I decided to put the pick-up artist guide on hold first, since its not really the most important book that I have in mind currently.

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Blog Rating.

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I woke up with an empty heart.

I woke up with a empty heart. Why so? I don't know. 2008, a new year. Life path has changed.

1st probable path: If I did well with my paper, I probably would have woken up in my room, among my Gundam models and martial arts weapons and dojo signage. I would have started my application to look for a job. Get a secure job, work hard and get a family and live the norm of the middle-class Singaporean life. I would probably have been able to go for the Aikido seminar. I would have went back to the Aikido class in Siglap, catch up with all my old friends, went back to the Aikido class in Bedok and Kembangan. I would have probably met up around town with the mates like Sebastian, Desmond, Ryan.

2nd path: I failed a module. And I have that habit to talk about it and this is my blog. Do not criticize me based on your standards. To me, you have basically just fucked yourself out of my life. Believing others that I wrote about you watching porn in your room without checking out the truth is to me, just a sure assurance of your naivety. Spreading shit nonsense of me just to get yourself in the light has also proved to me what a bullshit ass you are.

("Anyway. Writing life like this is just to get some funny rating on my blog. Just make light of it if you can't take it, please. Mr Guo An, I'll highlight this explicitly." Since the English syllabus of your name referred to so many of my other friends as well.)

Well, on to the real thing. Changes to my path. I got a new insight on life in living with Uncle Albert and Aunt Jennifer for a life. Working hard in a safe secure job is just not the way. Get a proper goal, Having basic accounting knowledge helps too. Knowing your assets, liabilities, income and expense pools help much more in detail. I got to know new friends, old friends better and improved links among existing friends. I got to know Zee prefers watching people play games, got to know Cher, Fongfei, Jiawei, Xiaowei, Xinyi, Lijie. Groups of people from Myra's clique. Strangely, I found that Lijie looks alot like my first girlfriend. =P

I got to know Chandra, one of Jerome and Terence's friends. Cute guy with a unique charm. Woah. Got to know others like Rona, Jiajia, Rinnie, Risa, Ooi Min, Cynthia, Lex and er...the Ikan Billis Girl, I didn't get her name. Haha. Spent New Year Eve on the Yarra River with them and watched the spectacular fireworks on a hot night of 41 degrees.

Happy New Year!!


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Merry Christmas